William Fitzsimmons
Life isn't an easy game.
There's a goal to achieve , paths to take , tears to hold , energy to burn.
It is no one but you who directs and designs your life.
But if you encounter a mate or two or more who encourage you and grow together,
It's one of very luckiest thing that would occur in your life I suppose.
The first thing I wanna establish here is that I'm a "The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence" type of guy and the regret always comes along any decisions or moves I make.
The biggest event took place last year where the chance emerged with a single email.
I was chosen for the visa which gets me back to England.
I had failed twice before , so you know , I finally snatched it.
I was sitting on the bed holding my phone and taking time to let informations sink in.
That was one of those freezing nights in mid January, in my teeny-tiny bedroom.
Moments after , I was like ,oh let's celebrate the best day of my life with a glass of scotch or something!
I should've been only happy about that unless I was on the edge of running my own business.
Well , that was at least what the company was offering me at that time.
I still wonder why people there were so nice to me , and trusted a broke like me , and even gave me that great oppotunity. (I doubt that I'm able to pull it off even this day.)
That was such an odd feeling that I finally found the place to fit(in Japan).
"Just a stones throw from the Kanazawa station"
Honestly that sums up my life back in Kanazawa.
Seriously , my Kanazawa was like in that zone(3 miles radius.)
And when you are there , you'd instantly love how compact the city is , and how laid-back the people are with iconic Kanazawan-accent.
Great mixture of new and old , well-preserved traditions.
Good Neighbors was literally a door to all those new elements of Japan.
And thanks to its super unique atmosphere where you meet poeple from abroad everyday ,city was a bit filtered to my eyes unlike any previous experiences when I moved to somewhere new.
My first big move was when I left home for my uni.
Then moved to the UK(for 1 year volunteer) , then Tokyo.
None of them felt like what I did about Kanazawa(even the UK lol)
I said filtered , it's actually hard to explain.
But I'm guessing because I was speaking English everyday in the most casual way and the life then was happening around travelling related way such as hanging out ,playing board games and drinking with guests every night, I kept feeling that I was stuck in the damn good dream or something while having a sense of guilty that I don't deserve to get paid for this fun.
Working there , and living there was that special experience.
I loved so much working with crazy people and hearing stories that I would never heard of , day by day.
And most importantly , there was no one to blame what I do.
I never know how much I was saved by that.
Please put me back on track.(I'm so easily distracted and bored and start saying stupid puns and sh×t)
So ,opening my own shop(in whatever shapes) has been and will be one of my life goals.
And that was ,you know , their offer was literally one step closer to the goal.
But I took UK over it.
I don't know , maybe , just to be cool and say "It's too early to think about the future seriously"
Or simply I couldn't resist the fact that the visa is actually super hard to get one and I though there's not gonna be the second chance.
But you can understand my conflict that I battled then.
Things sometimes happen as if they are meant to happen.
And you need to somehow believe that is your own path to take.
But you can't help looking back at those things you would've done better.
Other choices or other possibilities.
That might make you sit before your laptop looking at pictures from good old days.
But you have your damn life going ahead.
New place , new encounters , new scenery , new whatever
They are all there to update you.
And this is how I conclude this.
There will surely be better version of your life.
just like..
